I’m still alive.
I’ve been cutting myself some slack and am allowing myself to feel what I’m feeling and so far I’ve not wanted to throw myself under a bus so I think it’s working
Monday was hard for me. I got two very unexpected pregnancy announcements that hurt my heart. The first was from a friends Dad who caught me on FB and asked me if I had heard the great news. My heart sank and I just knew that said friend was pregnant… with her third baby… her second baby is only 4 months old… The second one came from another friend who is pregnant with number 2. Wonderful news except she delivered it with the missive that she wished it would have taken longer than the 2 months it did to happen and that morning sickness was a “bitch” to deal with all day every day long for 8 weeks. *sigh* I am happy for them, I really am, but I can’t help but wonder when (if ever) it will be my turn to have that happiness. I ended up drinking a bottle of red wine on Monday night while watching Revolutionary Road (ps SO not the right movie to watch when you’re in an IF funk).
Other than that work has been hectic of late. So it’s been a busy few days.
So often on my way to or from work I see the most amazing skies. The colours are so vibrant and it just looks so damn beautiful that I have to take a snap with my cell phone. The pics I take never quite do the reality justice but I had to share two of my favourites from the last two weeks with you all.