I did not quite get the gift I was hoping for this Christmas but it seems it’s going to be a G.I.F.T of another kind in 2010.
We met with my lovely FS yesterday afternoon and went through the cycle and then discussed our options.
Our FS was very upfront about the fact that we’ve done every test under the sun, we’ve pretty much done everything and tested everything that we can to pinpoint any underlying issues as to why we keep having no success. There is technically nothing wrong (well aside from my PCOS but that is controlled in this process) and no indicators for why we keep getting shit news. Clearly our options are slowly but surely running out.
He feels that we’d be beating our heads against the same brick wall by trying another IVF with Intralipids and expect a different result. We’ve been down the fresh IVF road three times. It’s clearly not working for us. No matter how ballsy we are with the number of embies we put back.
While he was pleased to see that we’ve finally had some measure of success by way of the chemical pregnancy, he felt that we needed to look at other options. He stated that the fact we had achieved a chemical pregnancy bodes well for our future chances and that from a FS perspective he now knows that he does not need to necessarily worry overmuch about the uterus being the issue. Clearly it can handle implantation. Implantation *can* happen in my uterus which previously had been a very grey area for us and a huge cause for concern.
That leaves GIFT. Both he and his partner feel that we need to do GIFT simply cos by doing this treatment the eggs are in the ideal environment. Our fertilization rate has always been between 80 – 85% so they are not worried that we are at any risk of not having fertilization occur in the tubes. The hope is that by putting the eggs and sperm in the “ideal” environment we end up with that viable embryo implanting and sticking this time round. We’ll combine the GIFT with the intralipids again as well.
I asked about ectopic statistics and was pleasantly surprised to hear that they are less than 1% at my clinic with this treatment.
The question was as to how many eggs to put back. Our fert rate is good and in light of the fact that we now know embies can implant in my uterus they would like to er on the side of caution. Right now they’re saying 4 – 5 eggs. But obviously we’ll look at it closer to the time and see how we go.
Having chatted to a few friends who have had chemical pregnancies and who went onto having successful pregnancies with live births the very next treatment I found that most had waited a maximum of two months to try again. I talked to my FS about the possibility of the uterus having some form of muscle memory whereby it may perhaps remember being pregnant and that being the reason why many friends had success so soon after a chemical. As usual there is no scientific proof to support this but he did not pooh-pooh my theory right off the bat.
Time wise my FS will not do another treatment in less than 60 days. He feels we need to give my body time to recover and also for our hearts to heal emotionally. So we’re probably looking at late January or early February 2010.
I’m praying and hoping that the GIFT we do ends up being the GIFT that keeps on giving right up until a live birth late next year…
On another subject all together, I am often amazed how our hearts can handle so many conflicting emotions at once. While my heart is breaking for myself due to personal issues that are happening in my life right now, my heart explodes with joy at Sharon’s news and the fact that a good friend got a strong healthy beta with IVF #2 this morning. Our capacity for feeling is truly a wonderful thing.
It will never cease to amaze me.