Which means that I’m just about one week through the aweful two week wait. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy so that I can keep my mind off what is supposed to have been happening inside my uterus. Some days this week I’ve actually managed too 😉
Other days not so much.
But overall I’ve handled well, I still have hope that this is it and I believe in the miracle that could well have taken place. I bought a pressie for my friend yesterday (we found out she is having a son and a daughter – perfect pigeon pair). Cute little clothes for her munchkins. And I could not help myself, I had to buy one or two or five for the baby(s) that might be growing in my belly as I type this.
Will I feel stupid if this ends up unravelling? Sure. I’ll pack up those one or two or five outfits in the baby box hiding at the bottom of the cupboard along with all the other baby stuff I’ve collected over the years. And my heart will be sore.
But right now, I’ve believed enough to buy them, I need to believe I’ll get to use them.
Heading into the second week of the two week wait is not easy, but as long as I manage to keep myself busy and not too obsessed, I think we’ll be fine.