I often think about how life works. How some people get lumped with infertility and others don’t. How some people have to deal with finding out that their partner has cheated on them and others don’t. How some people have to deal with terminal illness and others don’t. The list is endless…
I think about what makes one fall into the one group or the other. Is it about retribution for the bad things you’ve done in your past? Is it about a great big scoreboard in the sky and you get points deducted for certain items you are not aware of which leads to your “punishment”?
Cos often I feel like this path I have to tread is a ‘punishment’ for some past error in judgement or wrong doing against another. I think of what I could have done in my life to deserve this path. But in reality it’s not about balancing the scales of wrong doing in past = punishment in your future. It is what it is. A path you walk, learn from, grow from and live with. When I really consider all things in the greater scheme, it’s not as bad as some other trials people have to face out there.
Yesterday Shaz and I had an interesting conversation on Skype about the theory of reaping what you sow. She made a valid point that if this theory holds true in all things in life, then in her case she would have sowed something in her past to reap her journey, and that would mean that she deserved her miscarriages etc. This really got me thinking. As a Christian the importance of sowing and reaping is a ‘theory’ that I believe in strongly. You sow love, good deeds, money or whatever and you are then expecting to receive a harvest of love, good deeds, money or whatever pressed down shaken together and running over. Right? But then what happens if you sow hate, (for lack of a better word) bad deeds etc? Then if the sowing and reaping philosophy holds true then surely you reap hate, bad deeds etc in the same manner? Right?
So does that mean that people who have challenges thrown at them sowed something challenging to reap this in return? Or is it just a case of shit happens?
If you are a Christian (but not limited to Christians), I really want to hear your thoughts on this one… I plan to chat to some people I fellowship with about this too… it’s something that is going round and round in my head.