I don’t think my new therapist knew what hit her last night. It seems I have quite the “thang” going on in my head and now we need to channel it out and get it all sorted.
I’m not going to go into any detail on this blog (well not right now anyway, still trying to get this all processed on my own) but suffice it it say that my step into the therapuetic world was WAY overdue. I’m a bit of a mess. But the good news is that I can be fixed.
The one thing that I will say is that I *really* need to work on my lack of ability to cry to release my emotions. I really battle to have a good drizz. I could feel the tears well up last night and I immediately fought them back. I could feel the ugly chin quiver and I forced it back. I wish I knew how to just let it all spill over and set it free… The good news is that this can be fixed too 😉
I’m really glad that I took this step. I know I have some hard sessions ahead of me, but I slept *really deeply* last night and I think it is cos my brain thought to itself “thank goodness she’s giving that white noise somewhere to go”…
Here’s to white noise becoming clear noise and to a good drizz!