Firstly let me say thank you to everyone for your most supportive comments. You guys are truly amazing.
I went in for the E2 and progesterone tests this morning, and I got a call from my doc to say that they had dropped drastically. He also ran a beta just in case and it is all over – a resounding negative.
In my heart of hearts I was expecting this, but I have taken this really hard. I am gutted. I am angry. I am hurt. I feel so betrayed by my body and I feel so sad that I have yet again disappointed my husband by not being able to do this basic thing.
I really don’t know what the next step will be but right now I am just trying to get myself through the hell of today and then we’ll take it one step at a time. And one thing I do know is that I am going to have the biggest glass of wine tonight cos abstaining clearly did not do any good.