Oh heart of mine
You lie there shattered
With no way of being fixed
It’s been too much
Way too fast
And before I can pick up the pieces
From the previous shattering
You shatter again
Its like a rollercoaster that I can’t get off of
Be still my shattered heart
So that slowly
Slowly
You can heal
Bone clenching, gut renchingly tired
Eyes stinging from strain
Feet drag through mires of mud
Everything is an effort
Breathing is hard
Blinking is a danger – too close to sleep
Brain tells you to just keep going
Do all you can to get through the day
When all you want to do is curl up in a ball
And dive headfirst into sleep
Glorious restful sleep…
It does not come
the rest it alludes you
Sleep tempts you
Sleep covers you
Sleep drags you under
Yet you wake….
Bone achingly tired and exhausted
To start again
I take you with me every day
Expecting to get a call from you
Lamenting how long we’ve been apart
I take you with me everyday
Memories I play over in my head
That laugh you had
The smile you had
The love you had of life
Swinging me round and round
Kissing Mom in the kitchen
Hugging us all the time
Tears you shed on the birth of the apple of your eye
Those blue eyes flashing with anger and forgiveness
I take you with me every day Dad
Forever in my heart
I tell myself I’m getting better
I tell myself it’s all right
That everything is on track
But I’m lying to myself
I say that it does not hurt anymore
That time has eased the pain
That everything is ok
But I’m lying to myself
They say that your heart will heal
That time heals all ails
That it’s all going to be ok
But they’re lying to me
My heart…
The truth is hard to say
My heart is…
Numb
Tick tock
Tick tock
Seconds spill into minutes
Minutes roll into hours
Hours crash into days
Days flow into months
Months thunder into years
How the hell did we get here?
How the hell?
Tick tock
Tick tock
Time is passing me by
While I am stuck
Caught in the mire of “waiting”
Tick tock
Tick tock
Time stands still for no man
Enjoy what it gives you while you can
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