About Me :)


I am Sam, Sam I am… A woman who is living life, loving friends and just trying to have fun with it all.

I am married to my soul mate Cliff, who infuriates me, laughs with me, crys with me, fights with me, loves me and stands by me…  I am incredibly blessed, as this blog started out as a way for me to deal with and connect with like people suffering from infertility.

We tried to conceive for 7 years.

For those who are interested here is our journey to our first child being conceived: 

April 2004 – Married :)

May 2004 – threw away the BCP, tried on our own

May 2005 to March 2006 – went to see a specialist – diagnosed with PCOS , several timed intercourse cycles, laparoscopy number 1 – stage 2 endo found & cleared (tubes were fine), 3 x Clomid cycles with AI – BFN, 2 x Gonal F injectable cycles with IUI- one cancelled and one BFN, felt like we were being pressured to go the IVF route, took a break

April 2006 to June 2006 – On a baby making break!!!

July 2006 to End 2007 – homeopathic remedies, china herbs, acupuncture, reflexology, chiropractics – all things “natural” – still no luck in our search for baby(s)

Jan/Feb 2008 – sought treatment at Vitalab, HSG xray showed possible blocked tubes, AMH levels 10.8 (totally confirming PCOS), low grade chronic infection of endometrium & “jagged” uterus shape – endometriosis suspected.

March 2008 – laparoscopy & hysteroscopy performed on the 18th March, stage 3 endometriosis excised and a septum was removed!  Tubes were clear, but poor left ovary was literally stuck to my bladder…

April 2008 – Estrofem & Provera taken whilst recovering from lap & hysteroscopy, office hysteroscopy done on 07th – beautful cavity announced :)  BCP to down regulate ovaries in preparation for IVF #1

May 2008 – IVF # 1 – 2 beautiful embies transferred, 4 frozen = BFN, did not even make it to test day!!! Only made it to 9DP3DT *sigh*

July/August 2008 – FET, 1 x 10 cell and 2 x compacting embryo’s transferred = BFN! Again did not make test day but got a little closer – 12DP5DT *sigh*

August 2008 – January 2009  On a baby making break! Saving $$ for next treatment…

Feb / Mar 2009 – IVF # 2 – 3 Grade A blasts transferred – suffered from OHSS – BFN.  Again did not make test day, spotting on 7DP5DT and full on bleeding and confirmed bloods on 9DP5DT…

April 2009 – Chromosonal bloods show we’re “normal” and technically should be able to have babies together :) Yay!

May 2009 – HLA compatibility studies done

June 2009 – WAITING for darn HLA study results so we can compile our next POA… oh how I hate the waiting!!!

July/ August 2009 – HLA studies show no contra indications to conception – IVF with Intralipids suggested, scan showed what looks like an abnormality on right ovary… Laparscopy # 3 booked for 25th August – lets see what’s up inside now hey?

August 2009 – Laparoscopy # 3 performed – minimal endo cleared and ovary declared all good after all

September & October 2009 – On the pill to prepare for fresh IVF #3

November & December 2009 – Fresh IVF # 3 with Intralipid Drip performed, 4 excellent quality blasts transfered on day 5.  Got through the previous fail points of early bleeding – were SURE THIS WAS IT!  It technically was it, but was not viable – Chemical pregnancy confirmed.

January 2010 – My Dad passes away unexpectedly.  Heart very sore but decision made to press on with our fertility plans after all…

February 2010 – GIFT aka ART treatment # 5.  9 eggs retrieved, 5 put back in left tube, 4 IVF’d – BFN!!  Absolutey gutted as GIFT is supposed to be the holy grail of fertility treatment.  HUGE concern as we never achieved fertilization with our left over eggs which we believe to be the reason our cycle failed.

March 2010 – August 2010 – saving money, coming to terms with Dad’s death, life in general and dealing with the ugliness inside after our failed GIFT…

September/October 2010 – “Secret” fresh IVF/ISCI #4 aka ART #6!!!  Transferred 1 x 12 cell, 1 x 9 cell and 1 x 8 cell embie on Day 3 – massive bleed 7 days into wait – panic stations!  Bleeding stops??? Confusion stations! What do you know??? It’s a BFP – totally surreal and unbelievable. Beta 1 = 274 (early test 3 days before scheduled test), Beta 2 = 716 (on scheduled beta test day), Beta 3 = 4938….Scan at 7 weeks shows 1 x Healthy Clam! Praise God!!!

Our son, Kade Ethan was born via emergency c-section at 18:16 on 03rd June 2011

Two years on and we have been blessed with our daughter, Gemma Grace who was miraculously naturally conceived.  Gemma joined our family on the 15th January 2014 at 17h06 via c-section.


Our family is now complete and we are SO SO blessed.


Now that I am a mother to two incredible children, this blog documents our lives, laughs and all the stuff that happens in between.

16 thoughts on “About Me :)

  1. Beautiful blog, Sam! Best of luck for your IVF cycle! It is exciting, the most amazing things happen so quickly and best of all is that it does have a high success rate.

  2. How exciting for you guys! I hope your doggies have a owner with a big tummy and then in about 8 and half month, a little baby to protect and not drool over.
    You are gorg by the way, Gorgeous and divine!

  3. nice to not be alone for sure! yeah my cycles have only ever ended due to provera.. otherwise my cycles would just go on forever. so depressing! thanks for the luck, back at you :D

  4. Hello Sam,

    My name is Michael and I’m a fellow WordPress.com blogger.

    A couple of days ago, while doing some random searching across the web, I came across a blog on Blogger.com – I also discovered that the author had “re-posted” one of my fiancee’s poems without permission and was trying to pass it off as his own writing.

    After doing some additional checking, I discovered that almost all of the written content on that site had been “cut and pasted” verbatim from WordPress bloggers. Your post: “Jingle Bells, Christmas Smells” was one of them.

    I don’t know if you gave permission for that person to “re-post” your writing, but in the event that you did not, I wanted to make you aware of the situation.

    You can see the “re-post” at: http://peeling-back-layers.blogspot.com/2008/12/jingle-bells-christmas-smells.html

    Best Regards,

    – michael -

  5. Hi Sam,

    I came across your blog along time ago & reading it was like reading everything that I was thinking myself! Our journeys are very simlar.

    I have been staying away from anything IVF retlated for the past few months (much needed break) but today I was clenaing out my favourite links and clicked on your blog.

    My heart goes out to you that you are in that very difficult place again, there is nothing I can say to you except that I understand, really I do.

    Be kind to yourself.

    : )


  6. Hi Sam
    Came across your blog from Elize and Sharons, love it as much as i love theres. Best of luck in your TTC journery, and in saving some cash.
    Also TTC been trying for 2.5 years, but haven’t really gone the treatment route yet, a bit scared.
    From Melanie

  7. I just love reading your blog. Best of luck with your TTC journey . We have also been trying for 6 years and are with DR V at Vitalab.


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  9. I really enjoyed reading your story this evening. I stumbled across your blog looking for parenting blogs and I found your article on surviving thanks to your BB very amusing. Same experience here but with my iPhone :)

    Perhaps you’d be happy to share your journey to motherhood with the members of TheMamaClub via our blog? I found your story to be really inspiring. Thank you

  10. Can’t believe I have been ‘reading’ your blog for so long….for so long before Kade, and after him, and that I can recall your cycle updates.

    Anyways, Congrats again, and blue suits you.

  11. Your story is an inspiration, I’m planning on going for my second ivf with icsi and intralipids.

    My hubby is super, I need God to come through for us

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